Mah Past...

my past is what i least want to think of.
for me its a horrible time, i try not
to think about it but it just pops out
of nowhere in my mind. Nobody will
ever understand me, not even my
best friends. I try not to think of the times
the times all the tears were shead, the times
that i tried to do something bad with myself.
maybe for some of you it doesnt look
like i have a bad past but i try to hide it.
in my spirit i feel like im covered
with cuts & bruises. When i try to think
of the good times in my past it always
ends up with the bad thoughts. what i hated
about it teh most is that when people saw
me in pain or that i was suffering hardly
nobody came to my rescue, but i do thank
the poeple that did. i know people are
always saying that its in the past & that i
shoudl forget about it , but the tihng is
i cant forgget about this. its like a scar
that well never go away no matter what.

-elisabeth pante