elisabeth (aka poncha)

i couldnt choose which one to put
so i just put both of them.

CONFUSED & SUFFERING
im trying to forgget what happened,cuz
i dont want to get to atached to you.but
what happened between us i will
never forgget. Now im so confused &
suffering cuz of you.you tell me something
& then you tell my friends something
else. Im suffering cuz im allreadytrying
to forgget about someone else, &
then youcame along. i dont know if i
should beleive you or notcuz of your
reputation & of all the stories that i'veheard
about you. You say you like me, but
you still haven't proven it to me. Because of
what happenedi will never be able to
see you the same way again




MY PAST
my past is what i least want to think of.for
me its a horrible time, i try notto
think about it but it just pops outof nowher
e in my mind. Nobody willever
understand me, not even mybest friends.
I try not to think of the timesthe times
all the tears were shead, the timesthat i
tried to do something bad with myself.
maybe for some of you it doesnt look
like i have a bad past but i try to hide it.in
my spirit i feel like im coveredwith cuts &
bruises. When i try to thinkof the good
times in my past it always ends up with the
bad thoughts. what i hated about it the
most is that when people sawme in pain or
that i was suffering hardly nobody came
to my rescue, but i do thankthe poeple that did.
i know people arealways saying that its in the
past & that i shoudl forget about it , but the thing
is cant forgget about this. its like a scar that will
never go away no matter what.